insomnia

i am going to fucking kick ass at the night shift.

i hate this.

i just want sleep.

today: a mishmash of words and pictures in lolcat form.

point the first:
stupidcat is a whore.
i came home from the office and here she is on the couch, all posed out like she's queen of all shit. for serious. in my next life, i am going to be a cat. lookit that. she's like "ya, it's 2am... i gots ma head on the pillow, ma legs stretched out... and ur steelin ma eyesafety with ur camerabeam."
fuck off, stupidcat. i can't even go to the bathroom without you following me. you are a disgusting, vile, repugnant, smelly ass animal.
and i envy you like hell.

i even made a coffee cup castle to show you, dear reader(s).

yeah, she knocked it down quick.
stupid bitch.

point the second: sugar, dun dun dun dun, oh, honey honey, dun dun dun duhn, you are my candy girl, and you got me watchin' you



in an effort to curb my sugar consumption, while my parents were away, i did a bit of an experiment. that's right. for SCIENCE. or laziness. alas, either way. i didn't throw my sugar packets out for a few days. this is two or three days of sugary goodness. now, i know this is unhealthy. 2 packets of sugar time an infinite amount of cups of coffee/tea is definitely spelling trouble. however, me without caffeine is a very scary sight, indeed.




point the third: im in ur politix misunderstandin u.

this is true. i do not understand politics. or politicians. or referendumbs (the b is there on purpose). doing some readin' and writin' tonight, one of the articles on the interwebz said that the low turnout at the election this year was due to young people and their apathy to a structured society. it's not like that at all, motherfucker. it's not that we don't care. but ur politix is stoopid, even lolcats can tell you that much. let's see what you fucks talked about this year, shall we? oh, the catholic school system. which has been pointed out to be extremely discriminatory. now, if you're going to fund a catholic system, shouldn't you be cheerfully funding a muslim system, a jewish system, a church of the flying spaghetti monster system, etc? as a devout pastafarian, i can only hope and dream that my future children will someday attend the Academy of His Flying Noodliness. for serious. (not that i would ever dream of pushing my religion on my future children. innocent until proven guilty, my friends. but if they CHOSE to attend that school, why should they not be allowed? oh, that's right... carbohydrates aren't jesus. i get it.)

this is molly. (2005 - 2005)
she was a politishun who fought for equal rights among species.
it took her a long time to type up proposals and false promises, but she enjoyed the exercise.
the stress got to her and she died in a barren cage of rage and inequality just before her first birthday.
some would say that if healthcare was in a better state, and that if rats were recognized as people, she would have made it.

i think karma got her.
she never voted.

in other news, if you don't have the new radiohead album "in rainbows", get it.

i've never been a big radiohead fan, like at all. but i got it coz it's free.

and it's actually rather mindblowing.

HAH!

blogging > working.
learning about the election < drinking.

take that, enrique.

:p

black tea

in an effort to keep the winter pounds off, i have taken to trying to drink my zillion daily cups of tea without sugar or milk.

i don't know if my tastebuds will adjust to this foul neccessity, but time shall tell.

Hey, Life

People often lament that the twentysomethings of this world are greedy, materialistic bastards who are never happy with anything. I am so sick of this. Why on Earth do we judge people's "richness" on a monetary figure? Seriously. With the fall leaves starting to change, I've had a lot of time to think about my current situation and those around me. Strangely, I've pretty much managed to keep company of relatively sane, non-materialistic people, so I suppose I might not be seeing it head-on. I hate money. I hate everything about it.
I would be happy if I could just know that I would be in a stable situation, and in a few years have a relatively normal life. I want a house, I want a car, I want kids (peddle yer ass backwards - not any time soon). It seems that most people want these things in their late twenties / early thirties, and I know I should not be one to compare to everyone else, but I have to wonder if I'll be stable enough to even think about accomplishing anything before I'm like... a hundred years old. I don't exactly have the best track record.
I want a job I like, seeing as I have a degree that I like well enough. I want to go back to school eventually because I know I should have gone to university all along. And I will. Even if it's just part time courses while I do grunt work. Fine.
I want a computer on a nice desk where I can sit and write. I want things I've written already framed on the wall behind it. I want to stop relying on people for money, for food, for happiness.
I want to grow up. I hate how, indirectly, I will be three years old for the rest of my life if I stay here. I hate how the demons follow me here no matter where I go. It's rather amazing. I cannot live this life as it is anymore.
So, Sunday is a new start. Clean slate.
I'm scared as all hell but excited at the same time.
Hopefully in six months I look back at this period of my life in awe.
That's kind of how I look back on the past three years.

when you dream, what do you dream about?

I had a dream about two black snakes chasing me and one of them bit me then I woke up all sweaty. Could you tell me the significance of the snakes?

It would depend on the association you had with the dream. Did you struggle with the snake or did it wither and die after it bit you? Gillian Holloway, Ph.D. identifies being bitten by a snake as meaning different things. She says, "In many dreams a single snake will come to bite you, and you may in fact be bitten after a brief struggle. To your amazement though, you will not die, and may find that the situation is not as bad as you thought." According to Holloway you have this kind of dream if you are struggling with some problem, relationship or challenge. "Such a snake-ordeal is an important signal that you are going through a kind of initiation; a psychological and spiritual trial that has the potential to change your life for the better if you deal with it bravely and with a clear heart. You may have to give up something you thought you couldn't, or take a stand for your principles or faith."

http://www.dreamsnightmares.com/snakes.html

Oh.